may your year sparkle with love light and laughter.
it's a thursday night. a day after the new years eve excitement has settled down. adam is playing the guitar. i'm blogging. there's a special kind of coziness and peace i have trouble expressing in words, but i know i have imagined this kind of life, my whole life.
we celebrated new years with some friends over, with some light snacks, and with some simple games. this year's celebration felt slightly quieter than it did the year before. for context, last years' was filled with more friends, more games and in some ways, more excitement that brought the rowdiness one would experience in a more typical party scene. this year's just felt more.. cozy and small scale.
i would be lying if i said i thoroughly enjoyed the celebration we had because deep down during the whole time i was wondering, "do people [others who were invited but didn't come] not want to hang out with us?".
writing about this now, i realize that i have the tendency to focus on the lack (where the others we invited didn't make it) instead of focusing on what's abundant (that there were actually people who came to celebrate with us). rather than relishing in the reality that the celebration was shared, i was preoccupied with the ego-centric thought that the lack of others was a reflection of how insufficient i (or, adam and i as a couple) was.
one of the activities we had last night was to share our top 3 photos that represented the year for us - i was pleasantly warmed to notice that it's really the people and the love they have for each other that permeates these photos. i think it also goes to show the values that my friends carry with them.
i hope this realization of abundance - of appreciating what's in front of me - sticks through the rest of the year. may i never lose sight of the blessings that have come my way. and with that, i wish you, a very happy new year.
